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Eating At Me Inside

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 30, 2006, 1:02 AM
If only this weren't real
If only the lies would stop eating at me
Did I really do that
Is this real
Have I lost it once again
In the smoggy haze of this city
In the lies I tell everyday
They say its for protection
What about the loss of a mind
Who are you
Eating at me inside
I love you but I hate you
No one understands you
I've lost it
If only they all knew
I wonder if they do
Can they see it eating at me
Do they watch me struggle
Laugh when i walk away
Head down in a daze
Are they all against me
Is this all a dream
Will I wake up in oblivion
Unaware of it all
Of whats eating at me inside

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 20
  • Current Residence: Cincinnati, OH
  • Interests: Paintings, Photography, Poetry, Drawings, and pretty much anything thats artistic and creative
  • Favourite movie: Vanilla Sky
  • Favourite band or musician: Pink Floyd
  • Favourite genre of music: Everything!
  • Favourite poet or writer: Chuck Palahnuik
  • Favourite game: Tetris
  • Favourite gaming platform: Sega Genisis
  • Favourite cartoon character: Salad Fingers
  • Personal Quote: "I watch myself fade away. I watch you take my place. I watch you evolve into me."

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~Kiainakika:iconKiainakika: Jul 24, 2008, 7:17:06 AM Mood: Delighted
thanks for the :+fav:

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~Kiainakika:iconKiainakika: Jul 9, 2008, 9:23:45 AM
nothing you?

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~ReanimatedDemonika:iconReanimatedDemonika: Apr 20, 2008, 2:39:16 PM
what is up dude?

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~Kiainakika:iconKiainakika: Mar 27, 2008, 7:01:40 AM Mood: Thrilled
hello Kassi what up

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*meow* cant tell where I am so where am I? nothing is ever what it seems, so what is to come from me?
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so is it true? So is what true?*meow*
~Lionious:iconLionious: May 17, 2007, 7:07:44 AM
Heylo, see I told ya we'd talk! ^_^

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~LossofHope:iconLossofHope: Apr 25, 2006, 9:26:49 AM
Hey its really cool to find someone else who is from ohio. Im about 70 miles north of you though, lol
~LossofHope:iconLossofHope: Apr 25, 2006, 9:26:49 AM
Hey its really cool to find someone else who is from ohio. Im about 70 miles north of you though, lol
~Abyssal-Specter:iconAbyssal-Specter: Apr 22, 2006, 4:07:00 PM
Happy Earthday!

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~luvbitesnrazorlines:iconluvbitesnrazorlines: Oct 29, 2005, 6:06:42 PM
hey darling.

i know its been awhile.
how are you?
how are things?

do you go to the art institute?

listen... i dont know if you even get on here... and i know this is really late notice...

but i was wondering if you have my combat boots for like 3 years ago.

im going to msi on halloween... and i really would love to have them.

and i would love that it would give me an excuse to see you.
im going to try to keep calling you.

peacenlove
staceyk.:)

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~DOA-DeadOnArrival:iconDOA-DeadOnArrival: Aug 9, 2005, 12:06:07 AM
well its been a long time and i havent really move on i havent even been with anyone gotten a few hugs and shit but i was worried last time i saw you. I hope your alright and shit but id just want to apoligize for being a shitty boyfriend and shit. glad to hear you and ceej got shit goin on, but keep safe, please. I was on my benj for a while too- pretty much a sober kid now days but you know how it goes. Hate objects, just make me some more shit on this thing cause i care. life spins in circles down the drain and im just the drain. or call me your potty water and shit on my face. cant really mind it, but i just suck at keeping puples happy. bleh. you got me. clickit ticket or shoot me. 9 milly. what evea
*Mopti:iconMopti: May 11, 2005, 2:28:30 AM
Thanks for the fav on "Margot..." :)

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~ReanimatedDemonika:iconReanimatedDemonika: Mar 3, 2005, 11:16:05 AM
it depends ben
did you mean to rape me
did you mean to hold me down
on the couch, pull my legs apart
and force yourself in me?
did you mean to do that
I don't see how that could of been
an accident. You took something
that's supposed to be so sacred
and just made it nothing
You fucked with my head
More than just fucking me
You mind fucked me
Did you mean to do that?
I think you need to seriously think
about what you've done to me
I know i said that we did a lot to
hurt eachother but everything i did
to hurt you was on purpose
I did it for revenge
And I don't feel one ounce of regret
the last few months of our relationship
I fucked you
And you deserved it all
But it doesn't matter how
much I hurt you
it will never be equivalent
for the pain you've brought me

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~spineofredroses:iconspineofredroses: Oct 17, 2004, 7:24:57 PM
Yes, I am a dork. =D
[go me]

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~sweetheart18:iconsweetheart18: Sep 7, 2004, 5:43:28 PM
Hello, I did a random deviant and found your page. Nice gallery!

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~dreadz:icondreadz: Jul 17, 2004, 12:55:25 PM
It is so cool that you don't live too too too far from me. I live in Franklin, Wisconsin. Maybe someday or sometime after we get to know each other more as friends I could stop out by you and come over and have fun as friends and play my band demos for you on my electric guitar :)

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and emotions have a goal,
Where the two meet is up the individual.

2 new quotes from 2008 from my :heart
~dreadz:icondreadz: Jul 17, 2004, 12:53:32 PM
Going to add you to my da watch. impressive gallery. Thanks for the comment. Very cool deviations you have here. I like the da name too you have. Very interesting. My name is Dan. pleased to make your acquaintance *bows in respect* Have a nice day and night now ok :hug: :peace:

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Live with purpose,
don't purposely live life.

Life has a purpose,
and emotions have a goal,
Where the two meet is up the individual.

2 new quotes from 2008 from my :heart
~litetbus:iconlitetbus: Jul 17, 2004, 12:05:55 PM
Thank you very much ! :hug:
:blowkiss:

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~resqben:iconresqben: Jul 6, 2004, 12:37:08 PM
:wave:

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~ReanimatedDemonika:iconReanimatedDemonika: Jul 3, 2004, 11:02:15 PM
I want a hug you created yourself not passing on a hug from a bunch of other people... its not special its just obnoxious

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~ReanimatedDemonika:iconReanimatedDemonika: Jun 27, 2004, 3:29:44 PM
I was hugged YAY!!! :bounce:
Its almost like being love :cries:

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~DOA-DeadOnArrival:iconDOA-DeadOnArrival: Jun 26, 2004, 6:56:41 PM
Guess what......YOU HAVE BEEN HUGGED! Spread the love around! Pick any of your friends who you think don't get much love and, HUG THEM! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You can hug the same person as many times as you see fit!
3- You -MUST- spread the love people! At least 1 hug!
4- You should hug in public! Paste it on their user page so they feel loved!
5- Random hugs are perfectly okay!
6- Please, don't worry about same gender hugging, it's a love hug!
7- You should most definitly get started hugging right away!
Remember, this is about showing love to your fellow peeps! Everybody should get a hug
*this da love was started by ~ lady-alessandra and ~ Godscrossingsandevil

Have one right back